"why now?!"
10 months after my son’s motorbike accident I still have sudden flashes of overwhelming emotion. (I want to say at this point that it all worked out ok, really) They come, seemingly out of nowhere, triggered by something innocuous, benign. It’s often, though not always, a ‘helpless mummy’ feeling, and I feel like I’m back by his hospital bed, I can’t fix things for my son, I can’t make it all better; I have to trust that the medics know what to do and have his best interest